Friday, February 11, 2011

mental sanity?

I dont know why but this week has felt like a really long week! It could be because i didnt have any appointments to do any hair, so my so called "time away" didnt happen this week! And its not that i've been holed up in my house all that much this week either..although one afternoon in my house with a whining toddler can feel like a lifetime! (currently to keep him quiet while i finally get around to doing my blog..he is eating/playing in cottage cheese, and not the kind that spews out of a child's stomach...the kind that comes in a bucket!) I was able to do a few things this week, i even managed to get my hair done (yay!) while Lucas sat actually rather good in his stroller. He proceeded to terrorize the shop while i had it cut though and i almost left him there as a child worker to do the sweeping..he was rather fond of that broom! We took dinner to our friends house who just had their second baby and Lucas thought that tiny little eyeballs and noses were meant for poking! (sorry can get him back when your older!) I had coffee with two of my close friends for about an hour. (sometimes i wonder is they get tired of my verbal diarhea..i cant help myself, i talk to a 1 year old all day!) We went to Balzac mall  to buy a gift for my neice Amiyah and being the nice mom that i am let him run up and down the halls! Oh how i love that mall during the weekday mornings! He tried to charm every lady walking by him with his cute little waves and shy little "hi"s, and than proceeded to scowl at me and whine when i once again prevented him from running into the adjacent store and ripping every item he could see off the shelf! One lady even tried to convince him to go in the coach store and i shot her a look of "you dont know what you r asking for lady! I dont think i could afford any damages that he might render upon your rather expensive purses!!" Needless to say after the walk down the hallway mommy had had enough and stuck him in the child pit (play area!) with no way out! Stupid sign says that you cant take coffee in with you...who r these people that make these rules?? My one chance to sit and nurse my cold coffee cup while my child teetering on the plastic bug on the floor! Hey..those floors are padded and they are a whole lot softer than the ones at home...and did i mention that there is no way out unless i the parent decided its time to leave?? Its about as close as i can get to a padded walled room. Anyhoo..this morning we made it once again to mom's group! It is great to get together with other moms and drown our sorrows in Kareen's lovely baking and awesome coffee! All i need is a baby straight jacket and i might be able to sit down and drink the "whole" cup of coffee. Oh well...Lucas has fun, as do all the kids and if we are going to go crazy at home, we might as well go crazy together. right? And than tomorrow we head to Red Deer for my nephew Colby's bday and possibly to Three Hills after that for our neice Amiyah's bday. So why do i feel like i'm slowly going crazy?? I find this age that he is at is hard..its not that i dont love this age but it definately has its challenges. Hes not old enough to be verbal on what he wants and instead whines or cries when he cant do something or wants something...which is 85% of the time.  He is learning words though..and everything is"out", "cats", "hats", or "crash". He also says "all done" and "uh oh". He as well doesnt have the attention span to sit and play with something for very my attempt at teaching him to color isnt going very far yet. It makes it hard to sit and play with him which he loves...but drives me crazy when all he wants to do is treat me like his personal climbing tower! And he hates when hes not getting attention..which is most kids i guess! I'm waiting for when his little imagination kicks in and he starts "play" playing with his toys and not just bashing them against the coffee table or my head for that matter! So part of me wants him to grow up and part of me is sad that he is no longer a baby but growing everyday! (ask my husband about my mini meltdown last night when he refused to nurse before bed!) Its the constant "pick me up mommy", "put me down mommy!" all day...24/7 that wears on my nerves. Its interesting how despite all that..we as "moms" get up everyday and deal with them everyday and  LOVE them everyday. This "job" is harder than any other one that i have ever done but also the most rewarding. The knowledge that i have to teach and instill in this little one the things that will one day make him a great  "man/worker/husband/father" is a little intimidating. And watching his mommy run around the house with psycho hair, ripped clothes and rocking back and forth on the couch is not going to help him get to that point. So for that i remain "sane" and calm the little voice inside me that ones to yell sometimes (sometimes that little voice wins..but hey..i'm not perfect!) and try to teach him in those bad moments hopefully something that will turn it one day into a good moment!! God will never give you more than you can handle! :) So there is my post...not sure where it headed and ended up but it made me feel a little more "sane". And for those of you that are a little concerned about my overall well being i will take up any offers of a "mommy needs a night/afternoon out!" :) And than you can check on the sanity of my husband Reuben at a later date! :)
sweet baby Zachery

Big Brother Kai

Timeout! Just kidding..if only! lol!

his favorite place to play in the kitchen..stove drawer!

"Mommy where r u?" Peeping through the cat door when i go downstairs to do laundry..he likes to throw all his toys through as well!


  1. Sounds familiar. Hang in there...I don't even know what else to say. Also be prepared you are entering high risk for tumbling stage. Between 18 months and 2 and half Jakob got more bumps bruises in a day than in the first year of his life.

  2. I can understand how blogging helps to relax your mins and body!

  3. yeah today he split his lip open and it was rather fat for awhile at mom's group, and at home he fell and hit his head like 3 times in a half hour period!! Fun fun!

  4. totally can relate! Our boys are soo much a like! its fun but crazy! It has been nice here so we can go outside and he can run around the back yard so that helps! I wish we lived closer!